Having a child amplifies every fiber of my being. Every emotion I feel is tenfold to that which I felt before having my fiesty toddler.
My love, joy, frustration, patience, sadness, heartache, amazement, fear. I experienced these before my baby entered the world. Now that he is here, these emotions are all consuming. I love to the very center of my bone. I fear to the very ends of my hair. My heart literally races with joy.
I am almost sick with emotion. I feel everything.
Sometimes this is scary. I almost cannot wrap my mind around being so passionate about another person - both the joys and sorrows.
It is my goal to always be contented. Patient. To recognize the good and the bad. To let go of control and breathe in experiences. I want to be.
I cannot keep my child from harm. I cannot keep him from growing up. I cannot always cry tears because my love is so fierce. While I want to experience all of these emotions, I want to also recognize that I am utterly blessed. I want to be calm, patient, and thankful.